The inevitable feeling..

Today was a sad day…

Where do I begin? Let me start with my career life.

I graduated from Monash University Malaysia in June 2006 and was offered a job in Farooq Consultants as a Total Interactive Training Specialist (T.I.T.S – thanks to my boss for coming with the name!) and my main job functions were to improve on current training modules, deliver training modules, and find ways and means to make it more exciting! Did that job for ONE year until I was given the GOLDEN opportunity to start my own wellness retreat center with my COUSIN! *Wow!*

The job was based in Skudai and I was offered the position of Chief Operating Officer with a pay of about RM5k! *bloody good!* It was basically just 3 of us in this project to kick start a 13 acre piece of land into a GRAND wellness retreat center! Wow~ great times there!

Unfortunately, I coasted in that job without really applying myself as the job required me to be EXTREMELY good at taking initiatives and being PROACTIVE! =D So I left the company in 6 months as we couldn’t foresee the company coming to pass…*the whole project cost RM100 million and we couldn’t see any breakeven even after 5 years operations*

The good thing I learnt from that job was:

1) Being responsible and taking ownership of my job function (which I didn’t..)

2) Developing Great Network! (MY cousin was so well connected that he could just make a couple of calls to get the things he needed..very sharp and smart entrepeneur)

3) Believing that BIG dreams are possible to achieve! *I always wanted to develop my career in the Fitness industry and had the chance to do so*

Anyways, March 2008 came and we had to close down the company..I came back to KL jobless and disheartened..I had abandoned hopes of working in KL cause I gave my all to make my job in Johor a success but I couldn’t. So that week was very taxing on me emotionally.. =(

My other partner over there was still stayed backto work for my cousin and the latest plan I heard from him was that he was going to develop a BUDGET HOTEL. WTF?!! From wellness center to budget hotel?!! Damn..I’m so glad that I left the company as I REALLY can’t see myself doing that lah!

I came back to KL with big credit card debts and needed to find a job quickly to help me settle it fast! I went crawling back to Farooq Consultants looking for a high paying job and the only job he could offer me was in Sales. I decided to give it a try as I needed to improve on my selling skills. So the incentives was good and I felt God has given me a second chance at a comeback..

Boy…Reality hits you hard! I felt like a high flyer in Johor feeling I could conquer all but being in this company made me realise I have not been applying myself!

Bad work habits that I have developed all these while:

1) Slacking at work doing non-productive activities e.g. Facebooking, chatting, etc..

2) Not taking job responsibility nor ownership of what I was doing e.g. Not being proactive but more of taking orders of what to do next..

3) Bad discipline of time e.g. Time urgentness was not a huge factor for me and I could be happy with myself doing the minimal..

Now I’m in a dilemma..

I have developed some really bad work habits which I must change immediately!

I remember Anthony Robbins once said that the reason why people don’t change is because they feel that the change is a ‘SHOULD’ and not a ‘MUST’.

e.g. I should go on a diet, I should lose weight, I should be more punctual, etc…

BUT THEY DON’T CHANGE! Why? because they don’t see a sense to do so…

First Anthony’s principle: People will only change when they see it as a MUST to change, not a SHOULD..

e.g. I must be more loving, I must apply myself, etc.

When people apply themselves, you’ll notice that it’s always a must for them and not a should!

Another principle from Anthony: People will change when they associate the change to either EXTREME PLEASURE or EXTREME PAIN!

This is not an S&M topic yeah! *don’t get naughty thoughts into your head*

What he basically said is that people will change when they ASSOCIATE great rewards e.g. if I start exercising, I’ll look better/healthier.. or GREAT pain e.g. If I don’t apply myself at work, I’ll get sacked!

And the thing about PAIN/PLEASURE principle is that it must be IMMEDIATE!

For example,

I must IMMEDIATELY reward myself for exercising today e.g. Eat ice cream as a form of reward so that I associate working out to ICE CREAM!


I must feel IMMEDIATE pain when I’m smoking now *and not think about cancer only affecting me later*

Smart guy this Anthony Robbins. Really wish to learn alot from him! =D

Anyways, how does that apply to me? In order to change my work habits in work, I must associate IMMEDIATE PAIN or IMMEDIATE PLEASURE to me applying the change. However, this is where I get stuck.

I do not reward myself for achieving my goals e.g. Getting meetings, Calling up clients, etc. as I feel those tasks are too miniscule to reward myself

And i don’t push myself if I feel pain. I just go into self depression and self pity mode and I can linger there for awhile before I perk myself back up at the GYM. I just don’t see myself applying myself during depressions.

However, I have pushed myself when people around tell me I can do it with constant encouragement! I find myself pushing myself beyond the limit when people do so..However, I can’t have a LIFETIME coach keep pushing me everytime I feel down. No one is able to do that..

So what can i do? Options are to apply myself at work OR to find something else to do.

I read somewhere where the author said do not waste your life working on your weaknesses BUT IMPROVE ON YOUR STRENGTHS! I find doing this job right now in SALES is to improve my weakness in sales as I was always afraid to do sales..

And nowadays I don’t look forward to going to job everyday as I get depressed in the mornings when I think of all the !@#!#!@ i have to do..with my job in Skudai I looked forward to going to work everyday.. =)

Now…what things do I look forward to doing?

1) Going to gym. *I’m one of the rare few people who actually ENJOY the PAIN of working out as I feel the RESULTS of my hardwork* If I can go gym everyday I would! =D

2) Going to RESTAURANT. *hahaha! I like to eat lah!*

3) Going to the acting studio / tv hosting / entertainment line. *I believe I can be an actor and constantly go there to work as I find that very enjoyable. I just feel Malaysia has not much to offer in the PERFORMING ARTS as it does not really pay the bills so I have to do this part time..*

4) Training.. physical training that is. I enjoy working out with people and see their lifes improve before my eyes. I associate leading a healthy lifestyle to the way you lead your life. Being discipline in this area would make you discipline in your social life/work life/sex life/ etc.. I look forward to the day when one of the people I’ve trained will look back and say “you know what? I became like this because of you!” I’ll feel so proud then! I actually have a test subject already in progress but she hasn’t really thanked me for the work I’ve done for her! ha ha!

There..a but long winded today but i just feel like pouring out my heart about my work..Now, I’m scared to look for a new job as I DO NOT WANT TO BRING my BAD WORK HABITS together with me. I want to improve on that and then only apply for a job…but how long will that take? Hmmmm…

Gold Chan

p/s – This inevitable feeling of mine has screwed up my love life.. Feel like I can’t buy anything, can’t provide, not being responsible..sigh…=( Don’t think I deserve to be in a relationship at all…

Published in: on August 26, 2008 at 11:05 pm  Leave a Comment  

Let me talk and talk and talk..

After looking at my previous entries, I realise that the entries I posted (as Simon Cowell would say) ‘utter nonsense’. I went through (and I bet half of you bloggers out there went through it too) is called Writer’s Block! Ha ha ha! Must let the creativity flow out of me like diarrhea in a toilet bowl…LOUD, FAST, and….SWIMMINGLY??

Hmmm..what shall I talk about today? Okay..I shall segregate my topics to whatsoever I wish to type about..

1) Olympics..

2) Petrol Price

3) About me!

Ha ha! Okay…about Olympics.. Did you know that the Olympic rings represent the ELEMENTS of the EARTH (Fire, Water, Wood, Metal, and Earth)??!! Ha ha! Betcha didn’t know!

Well, anyways, being a proud Jalur Gemilang fan…I was disappointed with Malaysia’s performance. Initially I thought that we only joined 3 sports (Badminton, Sailing, and Shooting) but later I realised we also joined Taekwondo! *makes Bruce Lee’s Woooaaaa!*

The only game I saw of us PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN is Lee Chong Wei vs Lin Dan! Bloody hell…2 hot guys! *frust frust frust*

Chong Wei

Chong Wei

Frankly, disappointing performance from Malaysian’s side due to the amount of pressure faced. Anyhow, glad that he’s now a Grandpa (Datuk-lah!) and has gotten RM300,000 for bringing home the silver..=)

Either than that, Olympics is fun! Glad to see people cheering on their favourite teams and to see the amount of sportmanship and enthusiasm makes me feel that this world can use more buddy buddy friendship and not a lot of War..

Reminds me of this joke..please do not get offended whatsoever you are!

It is a common knowledge of Middle Easterns are not able to say the ‘P’ word as in their language there is no ‘P’ sounding words. This is similar to the Chinese not being able to pronounce the ‘R’ word cause in the Chinese language there is no ‘R’ sounding words. (A bit of Human Sociology fact for you!)

Bringing back to my story, Saddam Hussein was making passionate love to his wife and she was reaching orgasm and she kept shouting ‘BUSH! BUSH!’

This started the eternal war between the Northern Country and the Middle Country! *she meant to say PUSH okay for you slow people out there*

2) Petrol Price

It was announce yesterday (read today’s paper) that the Government had reduce the price of petrol down by 15 sen to RM 2.55 per litre! *GOD DAMN IT! I just pumped petrol yesterday!!*

pumping petrol

pumping petrol

Anyhow, this is viewed (IMHO) as a populous move due to the Permatang Pauh elections coming up with the GREAT NEMESIS YAB DYMM TAN SRI DATUK DR WHATEVER Anwar Ibrahim. UMNO is scared of this guy having the capacity to actually TALK SENSE! *Wow…that is Malaysia for you* and have the power to sway the whole nation to accept him as the new Prime Minister..

I’m not very particular on this and shall try to be humbly non bias about this..Malaysia needs to have some reformation in the 1) judiciary system (bring back the JURY system man!) 2) Law enforcement system (RM 10 cukup tak bang?) and 3) quota system (We are one of the FEW nations giving privelleges to MAJORITY population, not the MINORITIES)

I just feel that the current Government needs a strong opposition to bring balance to the POWER (AYAM TELOR!! I AM THE LAW!!)!! *may the force be with you* However, I don’t believe Anwar is the right person to be the one..for I believe a LEOPARD does not change its spots that quickly*

Let’s not forget this:

1) He is the person that grows a janggut (how clean can he be man! Think of him slurping up that Kari Mee with the belacan stuck in that beard of his)

2) He was the person (when Education Minister) who changed the school end year holiday to November and to start school in December (So that Christians can’t celebrate XMAS properly! =p) *luckily that was changed when he left that post*

3) He rioted damn bloody banyak times when he studied in University Malaya for Malay rights and was arrested twice for the events..

4) When he challenged Dr. M for PM post..he kept shouting for Malay Rights and ignored us MINORITIES..

Anyhow, I know his strategy has changed! *being in prison for a while makes you think you know..especially having his @$$ being ******** constantly*

He knew that the people that grows the economy are the Chinese and Indians! He needed OUR support to make a difference and therefore his strategy has changed tremendously..and guess what? IT IS WORKING! Malaysians are so forgetful of what happened in the past *fail your history some more la!* and they keep thinking of the present concurent situations that they do not think of the future..

Anyways, to wrap this up, I just think that Anwar may not be the right person to suit the job. I just think he is the ‘Lesser of 2 evils..UMNO vs ANWAR..’

Why does Pak Lah only does his work at night?

Answer: Cause he’s PM, not AM….

3) About myself..


er…I’ll start with my Likes

LIKES: sleeping, going gym, eating, watching tv, watching movie, reading, etc..

DISLIKES: irritating people, annoying people, dumb people, being stressed, etc..

ha ha! err…hmmm…

Maybe I should be clearer on this:

My perceived STRENGTHS: Cute-ness man! *eh, i’m cute okay?!* / Ability to Public Speak *Hear ey hear ey!* / Gaze into a girl’s eye and melt her HEART *cheh wah!!* / Think of BULLS**T ideas on the spot *BUSH anyone?* / Speaking fluently and gelling well with adults and kids *can’t seem to connect with my age group..*

My perceived WEAKNESSES: Lazy / Annoying at times / Insensitive / Brash About Things / Easily get bored with routines / Difficulty Breaking Bad Habits / Negative Thinking at times..



Well, there you have it..

Hmm..the time is 3.00 a.m. *WTF???!!!*

Belly still round round..blame LSF for that..=p

Gold Chan

p.s. – hungry lah..

Published in: on August 24, 2008 at 2:59 am  Comments (1)  

My 2nd blog

Today was an interesting day…

*pint drop silence*

Went to work, worked, left work, went home…..

*pint drop silence*

That summarises the day..

Anyways, ate full already..stomach fat, look pregnant..cham…

Well, er…thanks to SUET FOOOOONNNNNGGGGG!!!!! now I’m fat…

That summarises this blog entry..

Gold Chan

p/s – still feeling fat..

Published in: on August 22, 2008 at 1:39 pm  Comments (1)  

My First Blog! :p

Hey! This blog of mine is specially dedicated in expressing my views and opinions of Life and how I have been living it to the best of my capability! =D

I would first like to thank my parents for giving birth to me and to my sister for being there for me at times of… times..

and to thank Suet Foong for creating this blog for me! *hah! thought I forgot you huh!*

Anyways, too late to say about anything now…so good night!

Gold Chan

Published in: on August 21, 2008 at 6:49 pm  Leave a Comment